Last year, I really learned how to cry.
I cried until my throat hurt and my eyes dried out. And then I laughed. It seems everything that had never happened to me in all my years of life happened to me last year..
I lost someone very dear to me..
In my whole more than two decades of living, I had never truly lost anyone that really shook me quiet like last year. I never understood what loss meant until it felt like someone was reaching into my chest and ripping my heart apart.
I got robbed at gun point..
Prior to this, the only gun I’ve ever seen were in movies, or the hunters gun or the most realistic where the ones soldiers held at check points. And then they came into my home with their guns to steal material things with no sentimental attachment. They left as they came, with nothing of importance.
I got into an accident..
It happened fast, I almost can’t recall the details, it was bad but not critical, I lived with a few bruises and so did the vehicle involved. And yet, this too was something new to me.
I got critically ill..
I was infected with a bacteria called h.pylori which caused ulcers and I battled with it for months, it was never ending, everyone was in pain as I was in pain. And for months, everyone’s life revolved around my pain.
Naturally, after all I’ve been through you can expect that I fell into depression
My mental health took a downward spin, I had previously suffered from depression and had been treated accordingly but as the year unfolded, it became clear that I was relapsing fast and needed to get help immediately.
No doubt my skin followed suit
I can’t say I’ve really had great skin over the years, but I was beginning to get a good grasp of it and then everything happened and it was like I was back to square one..
And as if I hadn’t suffered enough, I went through a breakup..
Can we call it a breakup if your man simply ghosted? Well.. he ghosted. He resurfaced with an excuse but you guessed right, I was over it.
Last year I learned how to cry. I felt fear and I felt pain, my heart broke and my mind snapped. My body changed and my life changed.
And yet, here I am..
Living, laughing, moving on and all I can say is thank God.
2018 has undoubtedly been one of the hardest years of my adult life but I want to believe it’s also also been very insightful..
It was in all this, I learned about myself, my weakness and strengths. I learnt how strong I could be, how resilient I could be. I learned about love and sacrifice.
So here I am, hoping I’m wiser and stronger and ready to take on what 2019 has in store for me..
Cheers to a better life..
Now guys, tell me what kinds of posts y’all will love to see on here this year?